Clown hair

I went to get my hair cut yesterday. I like the results of a haircut, but the process is taxing. I have to sit in a chair with only a stranger for company and try not to be too introverted for an hour. Compounding the problem is I know nothing about hair other than I have it on my head and ya gotta take care of it and stuff. 

Yesterday, the stylist noticed I have natural curl. Which, yes, I do. But I never had natural curl when I was a kid (as a baby, yes, but then stick straight, and somewhere, some curl came back), so I'm used to straight hair. I've gone through a couple of periods of wearing it curly (not tight curls, mind you). But it always takes so much product and who wants crunchy hair? For peanut butter, acceptable, but I don't like it for my hair. 

Anyway, when she asked, I said go ahead and style it curly and she showed me how to style it in a way that isn't crunchy at all. It mostly looked lovely, and I debated buying some of the product she used, but then I remembered a couple of things:

1. There is always one spot that refuses to behave and it drives me crazy! It curls wonky, or it starts with a curl then goes straight. It seriously drives me nuts and I keep messing with it all day long and honestly, I don't need that in my life. And the odds that I'll chill out? Not good and I'm realistic enough to know that I should focus my "let's make a change" energies on more important things.

2. The odds that I'll be able to style it as well as the stylist are slim. This one did seem pretty easy, but also for me, it would be time consuming. And would it ever look as good?

3. I like running my fingers through my hair. I don't know that I remembered this so much as I realized it. And, curly hair isn't super conducive to running your fingers through your hair, at least not my curly hair. Doing it just turns my head to frizz.

4. Most importantly, when I let my hair have curl, I feel like I'm wearing a clown wig. I feel like my hair is huge. And it doesn't matter that I know it isn't--I feel like it is and it makes me super self-conscious. Also, I look like a bit of a stranger. I'm not used to myself with curly hair and it's weird to me to see myself that way. And since it's my head and my face and my me, and I just don't love it and go nuts feeling like my hair is huge and someone else's, I don't see any reason to wear it curly.

And so, I didn't buy product. It's good to know how to style it in a simple, non-crunchy way. Maybe I'll try it some day. But for now, straight is fine with me.