Commercial Break

Traveling is like life's little commercial break. At least, it is for me. There is something surreal about jumping on a plane and x number of hours being in a completely different part of the world, and everything about your life at point A seems to stop. It is a very bizarre thing. But sometimes, I really enjoy traveling, because, unlike real commercials which are usually just annoying and loud and trying to push stuff on you that you don't want or need, travel breaks take me out of life. Sometimes, I really need that, and I wish that the travel could just go on and on. Sometimes it's because the moment is just that great. But sometimes, it's because I am just not strong enough for life. In the end, though, the 'commercial break' always ends, and life starts again, whether I am ready or not. And now I am thinking about remotes, and pause and play buttons, which is just mixing analogies, and that is never a good thing. And even if you could fast forward, rewind, pause, or play life, I think it wouldn't make us any happier. I think we'd miss out on a lot. So, I guess I will just settle for life's little commercial breaks instead.

Loneliness

I'm not usually very serious when I post, but I've been learning a lot lately, and I thought it might help to remember and stay positive if I wrote some of the lessons I've been learning. I think loneliness is something most people are familiar with. But over the last few weeks, I have come to realize that loneliness isn't just about absence of people. It is also the absence of presence. I recently lost someone dear to me, who had such a presence in my life, that even when they weren't there, I wasn't lonely, because they were part of my life. Just knowing that they cared about me filled the silence and the empty places. I didn't have to see them or be around them for that to happen. And having lost them, I find the loneliness more lonely than before. Even when I'm around people, and being active, there is a loneliness, because the presence of that person is gone. And the silence and emptiness is deeper, more desolate, than it was before this person came into my life. I never knew that presence could be so powerful, and I am beginning to understand loss on a new level. It isn't a pleasant experience, and I hope that I am good enough to endure it well, and be wiser for it, and most of all I hope that someday, there will be another presence to fill the empty, silent places.

No words necessary

Unconventional

Some days, you just have to eat chocolate pudding for breakfast.